I have so much on my mind. I cant sleep. Tomorrow everything can change. We could start a future tomorrow or we could end everything. Tomorrow we could have no worries or tomorrow we could be more stressed than we've ever been. I can't hold back tears. Not knowing is the worst feeling. You want to enjoy good moments but you cant when you keep thinking about how easily it can be taken away. Fate brought us together. There's a reason we met. It can't end as quickly as it began. This is something special. This is better than the rest. This is just the beginning. It can't be the end too. I don't want to spend a day without you. Everything you do makes me smile. I love holding your hand and kissing you and hugging you. I could kiss you for hours and not get tired of it. It doesn't matter what we're doing, every minute together, I'm happy. What is our future going to be like? If you're not here with me? Am I going to be able to wait? Will I move on? Will I jump back to you when you come home? What if you get to stay home with me? Are we going to go into overdrive? Are we going to be obsessed with each other and spend every available minute together? Are we going to want to make love all the time? Are you going to tell me what you did after two weeks of knowing me? You think you might? I think I might. What if we do? And what if its all taken apart tomorrow? Or what if we finally get peace tomorrow and can just enjoy every moment? I need everything to be okay. I don't know if I can handle bad news. I'll be a wreck. I'd fall apart without you.